For many weeks I had a feeling and thought of loneliness and abandonment. I kept asking myself this question: "Why do I feel so alone and forgotten despite the fact that so many friends and family are showing their love and support?" I must have asked myself that question repeatedly for over a month until I recently realized that I have been missing many important details that have happened in our lives that are clear signs of God's work. I also realized that I continue to try to take control of the situation instead of giving complete control to our Lord and allowing him to show me the way.
This week was the hardest week for me. I have never been more tired and emotionally drained. We were so happy that Tim came home from the hospital yesterday afternoon. But then, later that evening, Maegan became very sick, so I stayed up with her most of the night trying to sooth her and bring her high fever down. Today, I took both Maegan and Katie to the doctor. The doctor gave them both antibiotics and told us we had to keep Tim and the girls apart for 5 to 7 days to prevent Tim from becoming very ill and being hospitalized again.
There are so many things going through my mind and so many emotions in my heart that it is really hard to explain and put them in writing. Perhaps that is the reason I just couldn't finish my previous post attempts and can't seem to make a decent post out of this one either. So I will end this post with the only glimpse of clarity in my mind and in my heart.
Tim will have a scan on July 21, exactly 9 days from tomorrow (7/13). I invite all of you to join in fervent prayer every day for the next 9 days. I would also encourage all of you to invite your own friends and family to join in and pray for Tim's healing. We really need all the prayers we can possibly get.
Do you believe in miracles? Let's believe and pray together that God will grant a miracle of healing for Tim!
Thank you!
I understand sweet Andrea. In my experience with Don's cancer this year, I found that I became so stressed, tired and scared. The one thing that helped was being grateful for a few blessings each night. Love you.
ReplyDeleteAndrea we are with you. There isnt a day that goes by that we dont think of you, Tim and your precious daughters. You are in our thoughts and prayers always. We shall overcome!
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Dear Precious Andrea...you are entitled to feel any way you feel! They are real and honest! What you are going through is very scary and very exhausting. You speak of clear signs of God's work...the fact that you got through that night with Maegan after Tim's homecoming and getting the girls to the doctor, are signs of God's work! You may not think very much of how you get through things as being strong. We are all observing from afar and maybe we can see God's work better from the outside than you. You are a tremendous example of spiritual strength and an amazing mother and wife. I saw that at the retreat and I had only just met you! We are not with you every minute literally to experience what you are going through. We can only pray for strength for you. And when you need to tell us you need more prayers because of however you are feeling or for whatever you need them for, you just open up and let us know. So glad you added requests for daily prayer as you await a big appointment coming up. We all need to walk your walk as best we can by your posting. So let it flow, girlfriend. Lay it all out there. No one will judge you. No one. We will ask for everyone we know or even meet, to pray for Tim and you and the girls! Prayer Changes Things! Many miracles have happened when many people pray over the same time period! Here they come...Look Out! Love and Prayers Always! Jeane and Tony
ReplyDeleteAndrea, You & Tim & the girls ARE in my daily prayers. However, I do confess, I forget to pray sometimes. Your post reminds me of the power & need to pray unceasingly as He tells us to. All of you are so strong & faithful. I will ask my friends & family to pray for you! God can do miracles - all we need to do is ASK. Love & blessings, Carla
ReplyDeleteAndrea and Tim, your love for each other and for God will sustain you always. Thanks so much for this blog so that we can keep up with all of your life. Just wanted to let everyone know, that there will be a mass said for Tim on Monday, June 25th, at 7:45 a.m. at Nativity CAtholic Church in Torrance. Keep your hope, love, and faith close to your heart and God will lift you up in his grace. Colleen
ReplyDeleteI was mistaken on the mass for Tim. It is the same time and at the same church, but on Tuesday,June 26th. The mass on the 25th is for my deceased husband, Larry.
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